Friends

I have decided that I am very very lonely.
I've been hanging out with this boy a lot lately but nothing will ever happen because he has a girlfriend. I don't want anything to happen either but I just loved spending time with him and acting like a couple. We would go out for meals, go shopping together, pub together. He would put his hand on my waist occasionally and pull me over to him, or sit with his arm around me, but we both knew it was friendly. And the other night a group of us all went out to a club then went back to his flat to sleep (his gf doesn't live there yet) and I was snuggled up to a boy in the bed and I just realised that I miss it so much. I miss having a boy, I miss laughing and joking and kissing and holding hands.
I just want to be loved.

Life is utter shite right now. Especially regarding food. I hardly ate anything for four days, lost like 1lb, gained it again because Ive eaten pizza, two chinese takeaways, a bacon roll and a cheese toastie. Oh and a tube of pringles, fish and roast potatoes. GAHHHHHH.
And I've had to come home for christmas which was so hard to say goodbye to my flatmates. I miss them :(

I'm going to bed because I start work tomorrow.
Good night xx